Mod’s (nearly dead) Hello
Excuse the gushy feelsyness; I’ve just been a basket case of “ughuu,” “desu desu,” and “doki doki.” (If that made any sense to you, please let me know what it means, cuz I sure as hell don’t! ;P) But I like this photo (even though I was quite intoxicated in it XP — I SWEAR I’M NOT AN ALCOHOLIC!!!…Yet. >.>;)
A-anyway…I originally thought it would be funny to not ever post a mod pic with my actual hair…but I just kinda wanted to put this out here…b-because I’m a freak and want to flaunt my current happiness!!! (And I’m NEVER happy!!) But two quick PSAs:
#1: If a super weirdo like me can find someone as amazing as I have, you can too! It’s not about looks. It’s not about experience. It’s about communication, trust, and honesty. I’m a complete derp. I get jealous easily. I’m clingy, codependent, have no self esteem, and do not believe I’m worth a damn. But this woman makes me feel like I’m not some unfixable piece of junk on the side of the road. She makes me feel that even though I have lots of baggage, lots of struggles, that my insecurities aren’t a complete deterrent and I’m not as crazy as I may think I am. (I’ve had friends prove to me that I am worth it, but sometimes it takes a different type of friend to help it all sink in.) Be yourself. Open up. It’ll hurt, but the only way to find someone who accepts you for you is to be yourself.
#2: While I’m by far not “old,” my body would like to say otherwise. I CANNOT rebound from a night of drinking nearly as quickly as my younger friends. So…the reason this post is what it is (and written as poorly as it is), is because I’m sleep-deprived and quite possibly hung over. Rough Friday ahead, but last night was TOTALLY worth it. ;P Now excuse me while my sluggish, nearly dead body goes and curls up in a corner.
Just seven more hours…>.>;;
[Might try to draw…but we’ll see how that goes. XD /artist block TT^TT]